Today is the 18th November 2009 .
I'm home now, had driving lessons this noon and so far i'm still fine for most of the parts except for the up slope part . Tomorrow is the day where results will show if i'm qualified to be a driver, even though it's still 23 hours away, i'm so tense up . I don't wish to fail, neither do i wanna fail . Throwing hard earned money for driving sure makes my heart pain, and i hope for the day where i can drive my family out for shopping . . . like how we used to when we were young kids .
So, may god be with me tomorrow . =)
It's the second week . . though i'm adapting to the public transport better, my heart still long to join you in Brunei . Those time at home, weekends at work, it's challenging to survive, especially after a long day at work and my love is so far away from me .
Despite the fact, and things we have to do for a better future, life goes on like normal days . So, i'll just have to stay strong, and so do you, my love .
Shirley said i haven't been myself lately . . i wonder how ? Perhaps i've been quieter, doesn't smile much or something . At home, i know i have, at least, only in front of my younger sister . I'm always complaining and using the same word to her - sian .
So long for you being at Brunei .
Worked last weekend, and a couple of things happened . A little caucasian girl, 5 years old, was very playful and naughty . She happened to have a feather of the macaw's, and came to me with it, trying to tickle me in the face . Well, being a guide, i have to entertain her, so i just laughed a bit . She doesn't seem satisfied with my reaction as to why i didn't feel tickled and had big laughter reaction, so she pushed her hand with the feather into my shirt and bra . So yeah, she touched my breast, so i pulled her hand out quickly and said that's rude, of course, with a smile on my face . And she ran to Mommy, i think she was satisfied with my reaction then .
Then came my colleague with a scorpion in his hands, he was playing with it . I haven't learnt to catch a scorpion yet, so i just smiled at him . We just did our job, for your information, i always have to catch giant millipedes longer than 15cm and 3-horn rhino beetle big as an adult's palm for tourist to snap pictures and see . Late in the afternoon, my colleague place the scorpion on the left bottom of his shirt and walked around . Another little girl saw and told her mom, her mom replied ''oh it's just a walkie-talkie'', and my colleague, being a sadist, haha, picked up and scorpion and placed it in his hands towards the mommy . The mommy, looking at the other exhibit, turned her head and screamed when she saw the scorpion . LOL !
Yeah, finally had a little laugh .
Had a nightmare last night . I dreamt of an accident, a huge lorry ran over many people, and corpses were all over, some with flat torso, others with head and legs apart . It was totally gross, but i was just a passerby in the car, feeling pity for all the victims . How i wish you were here to hug me to sleep .
Good luck to me for tomorrow .
This is for my husband .
总是相信有更好的,
会在前方,
就不顾一切的飘洋过海去,
用尽一生寻找
倦了累了渴望拥抱,
却找不到,
才忽然想起你还在我身后,
静静等着我,给我依靠
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人如此忧郁,
爱情渐渐模糊,
你的付出,
我总不够清楚,
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人变得忧郁,
爱上你不再怀疑,
只想对你说,我愿意..
总是相信有更好的,
会在前方,就不顾一切的飘洋过海去,
用尽一生寻找
倦了累了渴望拥抱,
却找不到,
才忽然想起你还在我身后,
静静等着我,给我依靠
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人如此忧郁,
爱情渐渐模糊,
你的付出,
我总不够清楚,
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人变得忧郁,
爱上你不再怀疑,
只想对你说,我愿意..
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人如此忧郁,
爱情渐渐模糊,
你的付出,
我总不够清楚,
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人变得忧郁,
爱上你不再怀疑,
只想对你说,我愿意
