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CHANTEL ANNA SMITH
20th June
Singapore Polytechnic - Accountancy
Age: 18 .

F A C E B O O K


Chantel Anna Smith
Chantel Anna Smith


W A N N A B E


Royal Princess
(i know i'm NAIVE ! =P)
Fashion Model
Air Stewardess
Fashionista
Interior/Graphic Designer
Ballroom dancer
Accountant

D R E A M S


Royal-Princess-like wedding proposal
Lounge-like home
Nissan Fairlady 350z and 370z
To be rich
Perfect features (physically)

D R E A M S


Apple MacBook Air
Class 3 Driving license
Apple IPOD
Fashion outfitsssss
Excellent Good grades

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Sunday, November 08, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 8th November 2009 . . .

Dear dear left for Brunei work posting this morning . Before he left, we went to KTV with his friends on Friday night . Saturday, we wentta Beach Road to get his No. 3 pants and had goreng pisang together . Then wentta meet Koh Jin for his favourite bah chor mee at Bedok .

This morning, his uncle came to drive us to the airport . And he left for his 0905hrs flight and asked his buddy to send me home . I didn't cry . . . in front of him, because i know he doesn't wanna go too, not that he had a choice .

I came home, washed my face and head to bed . Initially i thought that i really wasn't tired because my mind was fulla him . But i laid down anyway, a pillow and two blankets - one mine and the other his . And i cried to sleep .

Funny thing is . . . i don't feel excited at all . I thought i'd be, for finally there'll be time for me to go clubbing, as and when i like . But i realized i'd rather go to Brunei with him and suffer, than to stay here without him and have fun .

I felt so empty . With him around, everyday is a pleasant day . Right now, every place is a memory . And everything i do is so weird, like something is not right .

One year starts today, and there's 96 more days to Valentine's day and Chinese New Year .

Dear dear, i'm missing you since the moment you stepped into the transit area .



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2:24 PM



Monday, November 02, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 2nd Nov 2009 . Second post for the day .

These few months hasn't been too good for me . Or is it that i've expected too much from life ?

Wentta watch Sisters Keeper with the clique the other day, it was heart piercing . It reminded me totally about my uncle's death . Every single bit of it, and i cried in the cinema like some fool 5 or 6 times in a row .

How many times exactly do we have to see or watch tragedy in front of us before we know how to take good care and cherish life ? 100 times ? 1000 over ? Or never ever until we die ? Maybe some wouldn't even come to cherish when they die .

I know in time to come sooner or later someone around me, someone i love will join my uncle in heaven . Facing this reality, i try to remember everything every happenings i experience right now . To the least, i know i'll feel better when the time comes .

So tell me, you see your love ones killing themselves with cigarette toxics and let them be ?

I won't, it's either they quit or i'll join them . Trust me, i will . And read my lips, the amount you smoke is the amount i am gonna smoke equally to, nothing less only more .

Lastly, know this : In my world, lying brings every single thing to the end, traditionally and legally .

I smoke it in another way and you know it . If i have to be in jail for you to know, go on .



M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

2:13 PM





MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 2nd November 2009 . Just got back from Genting Highlands last night, and i should do my rating for this ''holiday'' . Score : 1/10 . I don't mind staying in the cheapest hotel at all, but entertainment wise, it's nothing, really nothing . The only thing nice and not great is the massage part, expensive enough to make me rate this 1 outta 10 . Casino . . i entered once with no choice . Theme park, heart attacked . Nothing interesting really, i guess there wouldn't be a second time .

Maybe i'll go Sydney with my friends .

Or i'll stay in Singapore and rot forever .



M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

12:36 PM



Friday, October 23, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 23rd October 2009 . First week of school flashed by, well it's not too bad after all, maybe because i'm back with my favorite friends ?

The last lesson ends off with my GEMS elective - Non verbal communication, the Body Language . Well, for a start, it's pretty interesting, though it's old ice breaking games something like that . Self introducing soon starts, everyone gets a chance to say something interesting about themselves . As the class gets open up, most of us eventually cheer when someone admits he likes drinking beer . Cool isn't it ? I mean instead of back at our side everyone is interested in the same old thing . Maybe i was too desperate about knowing more clubbing kakis, but seriously, i need some assurance that i'm not a bad egg in the entire nest .

Communication Skills for Business ( CSB ) wasn't too bad, except for the slang the tutor has is sometimes annoying . Did she mention she was from another country ?

Anyway, this semester should past in speed, since every module is so happening . Okay, at least more happening than the last .

Preparing to go Double O soon, au voir ~ !



M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

7:01 PM



Monday, October 19, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 18th October 2009 .

Felt so demoralized today, after a month of skipping my driving lessons, i finally had my lesson this morning . Forgot how to park, down gear too late, store the car in the middle of the road . Sometimes i feel that i don't have enough rights to be a car fan . How do you like something so much when in the first place can't operate the simple functions of it ?

But anyway, school is starting tomorrow, and tonight at Zouk, it's Paul van Dyke on the floor .

How i wish i could get high . . . like how Shirley did .

I hate money .



M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

12:49 AM



Thursday, October 15, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 15th October 2009 . Off work today again because i gotta settle my GEMS thingy . Really hate it because i have to go class alone and do everything alone, but i guess it's whatever since it's the last GEMS i gotta take .

Then again, i did enjoy today though it's no money day because i didn't went to work . Slept, woke up, ate, use my laptop, slept, woke up, ate, went out to buy groceries and came home and made my own sushi . =)

Was listening to Dangerous by Akon . . and recalled about how promiscuous i used to be . I was totally fitting to what he sang then, but i got sick of stupid men and so on .

School's starting next week, and yeah, everything starts all over again .

Shall blog again, ciao .



M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

10:04 PM



Wednesday, October 14, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 14th October 2009 . Lotsa photos from my wedding to be uploaded but i already did that in FaceBook, so yeah, you guys could go check it all there . Here are just some from my phone uploads .


Gifts from Fan and Yu Xian . =)








Thank you to all my friends who take their time off to attend despite their work commitments, i really appreciate it .

Wentta Bali, was alright there . Nothing much actually, just nice villas, some kampong place and a normal looking beach . Perhaps we should be in another part of Bali, where the nice beach is, but ah, it's over . I'll rate Bali 3/10 . Bali . . . a.k.a. cheater town . Zzz .

Came back, started work at Sentosa this week, and it was tiring . Maybe i haven't been working, that's why, but i have to work on, because i need this cash, pretty much .

So been working and nothing great happened lately, wentta Double O last weekend . Not too bad, except for the music, cause it's retro . Drank another new cocktail - Jager bomb . =) . Ten of those lined up nice .



One more time before the school starts ?

=)



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8:00 PM



Sunday, October 11, 2009

MY . COMPLICATED . LIFE

Today is the 11th October 2009 .

I am very bored right now, sitting in a room, not in my house, and trying to kill time while he's playing killer mahjong .

Sounds of the tiles is very annoying . The very word mahjong angers me .

I hate this .

Don't ask me why i dislike mahjong, it's just something that i hate . And to make things the worse, he's having fun, while me, at his place can't do what i wanna do because this is not my home, alone in the room, facing a computer which doesn't interest me .

So . . . what the fuck am i suppose to do ?

I hate mahjong, it is indeed :
- noisy
- waste of money
- addictive

Stupid .



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4:09 PM