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♥ Saturday, August 30, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 30th August 2008 . Exams are over, finally . But that doesn't really cheer me up . Find it strange . Okay, partly because of the exams . Well, i did study, but you know, it's all last minute job compared to weekly tutorials . So i don't expect myself to pass, will be looking on being a forward module student or in another words, a repeat student . Maybe this might be the worse part of my life ever so far . For the past six months i had been very unproductive, so bad i could tell i ruined my good reputation of myself built in the past .

I used to be so naive, so hardworking, i listen to orders and get them done my best, i never really care about my looks, i strive for the brightest future i can ever reach and i try to be the perfect child to my parents .

Secondary 4 ended and that's when i became a paranoiac, care for how i look, do nothing but online making new friends, and the thing that did the mass change of me is i want the life so happy to live in and not the life so stressed over who's better at work . I can't help but couldn't care more for bright future anymore, all i want now is for everyone to be safe and happy . You can go jobless but happy forever because there'll always be someone to help you with everyday needs, but you can't go unhappy with job forever because no one will heal your mental stress other than yourself . No more aiming of top accountant for me, it's just happy-job-enough-earnings-for-life . I don't want myself looking back and regretting now living a life forcing myself to study, i want a myself to look back and whisper to myself, ''wow, i lived a life so colorful and exciting . '' .

Anyway, lets blog about recent happenings . Photos of clubbing night with Jiejie .

Before i head out, hair parting changed and contact lenses .

Inside Power House .

Jiejie and me .

Again . Look behind and you'll see our drinks . Heneiken and one jug is mine . But it ain't enough .

Terence and me . That was Jiefu's hand doing the \/ . Lol .

Clubbing ends, exams came, and i got redbulls to keep me awake . =) . ALL MINE !

Made breakfast for myself . Toasted bread with cheese and a cup of warm lipton tea .

The cheese melted . Hmmm . Nice .

Was doing my revisions and took a break, laid down on my sister's bed and suddenly i realise this thing that someone gave me . Well, sweet of him, wanted to throw it away initially but Mom stopped me, she said it could be of use up in the display shelf . So i kept it till now .

Right . Enough of that . Dear's car mileage reached 60Km so it's time for servicing . Went to the workshop with him, and the place looks very interesting and there's a lot to learn there . I went around, monster capsules, air filters, brakes, ignition and led lights . Okay, photos time !

Top view from 2nd storey customer lounge .

That swift is high up .

Dear's rio above the ground .

Rio VS Swift . Swift's spec may be better . But it's the skill of the drive that determine who wins .

Exams over, it's job time . Then HK and back to studies .

Anyway, next wednesday 8pm to 4am at St. James Power House . Polytalks.com students would be attending ( some only ) . So i'm inviting people around to go too, that includes DAC/04 . If you're going, please sms me @ 91577658 to confirm or ask anything .

I'm going to rest, came home 7plus am this morning and went drinking last night . Anyway, fun would be next wednesday, something else . Muahahaha . Going clubbing with dear tonight . St. James again . St. James is fun, ain't like Lunar - Old Folks Home . Yet to explore Zouk .

To be continued ~

PS. Happy Birthday Dear . =)

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

8:00 AM

♥ Saturday, August 16, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 16th August 2008 .

In my room now, it's 6.03pm, and i'm starving . Dear's got duty today so it's my day alone . He drove me home half past seven this morning, and the first thing i came home to do was to sleep . Did not sleep at all, because when i was about to turn in to sleep beside him in the single bed, he was already asleep, didn't wanna awake him since he was sleeping so soundly, so i didn't approach him and watch television all night . He said i was silly, =/, but i personally don't like to be called awake after i'm knock out . =/ .

Slept all the way till 4.30pm, woke up, heated up the lunch Mom bought for me and i only ate two mouthful because there's no taste at all; too plain . Junjun finished it for me, so i'm here blogging, starving, alone in my sister's room tryna get myself to the exam mood while they're away to Bangkok for holiday .

Last wednesday was a big fun . Jiejie, JieFu, Terence and me, ErJie couldn't make it due to leg injury . Either she goes clubbing with us and miss the Bangkok trip or miss clubbing with us and go for her Bangkok trip . Bangkok trip is a must . So she's home sleeping .

Terence ended work late that night because he took a day off on Thursday - gotta finish work before play yeah . We met up with Jiejie, JieFu, WenJun ( Jiejie's friend ) and some other friends at Lunar . Sat around for a while, went up and down, drank one martell green tea and two glasses of liqor with lychee or something like that . And i saw Mark Tan, so i hadda run . Went back up, and Jiejie says Lunar is boring, it indeed is, a place for oldies, =P, and we decided to go St. James . Only four of us, we went Power Station . Free entries for Jiejie and me coz it's ladies night with 5 complementary drink coupons . Normal charges are S$20 for men and S$15 for ladies . Went in, i got my coupons exchanged for a jug of brandy with green tea and one heneiken . Drank all, except for the beer, shared it with dear . Danced, and i made my way up one of the small stage to dance and dear got jealous so i came down, then went over to Dragonfly and went back to Power House . There's a back door link between the two . Haha . Had fun till 3.40am and it's time to leave, people gotta close shop . Jiejie wants breakfast over at VivoCity McDonald's but it's closed . So we went our separate ways and got home to sleep .

After exams, i'm gonna hit Zouk next . First but ain't the last .

Having said so much, i'm having too much fun while my friends are all studying for exams . I guess it's my time to do it too . So byebye party life and hello books for the period of time . =/ .

Right . Will blog again . Ciao . =)

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

6:00 PM

♥ Tuesday, August 12, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 12th August 2008 .

Been long since i last posted . Skipped two lectures and had my GEMS test last friday and it was totally easy . Basically, my GEMS teacher had given us the answer . Two sketches and one star to remember and that's all we require to get 60/100 . Reach the exam class at 1.03pm and left at 1.20pm for the one hour paper . I got it, except for one sketches, i think i made a tiny mistake, overall, i could pass . Bless me . =) .

At night, dear came to fetch me and we went pub with his friends ( Ronald and all ), six of us . Haha, it was fun . We finished a bottle of Martel at Bedroom Bar, a few games of pool, then over to another pub for another four jugs of beer . We played games and stuffs, laughing on and off . Haha . Then had supper before heading back his house .

Mean while, Kif smsed me, 080808, the race is on, traffic police reduced due to national day parade . He got his Euro R all done up . 425 horse power, super loud exhaust, turbo and NOS with full bodykits and decals . River Valley to Marina South in 4minutes . Definitely missed out so much . ARGHHH ! Kiffffffffffffffffffffffffff ! =/ . But never mind, wait till i got my lisence . X.X !

It's been really long since i played till morning . After exams . . . i will . =) . Then came Saturday, we woke up before noon coz Ronald organized for a cycling session in the afternoon, in the end, only two of us woke up in time, the rest was still sleeping . Haha, and it rain too . So it was cancelled .

So we were at his place and Goh smsed him . Goh had got a room up at Swissotel, invited us over to watch the NDP fireworks . =) . We went, and it was nice, they had a room up at the 52th storey and had the room number 5252 . Here are some of the photographs, the rest are with dear, shall upload again in my next post . =) .

Before the night falls .

From the 52th storey view . It was amazing . So high up, so windy with a marvelous scenary .

The stadium was bright . I heard my eyes shouted : ''ouch !'' . Haha .

Fireworks .

More fireworks .

Even more fireworks .

And many more fireworks . I hadda video of the fireworks attached below . You people could get it buffed and watched it . =) . Last for about 3minutes . After that, we went off to shop for groceries, dear's gonna wake up and cook for me the next day . ^o^ . Groceries bought, we head home, got changed and Ronald's waiting for us down at the void deck in his van . Yeap, we're off to the pub again . This time, we had a bottle of Chivas . ( Reminds me of my birthday, =/ ) Anyway, we ended off early . Supper at around 2am plus i think, we had Rou Gu Cha, near Double O's . It was nice . Yum .
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Sunday came, Ronald asked us along for volleyball at Sentosa, but we rejected because first, when he called, we were still asleep, second, i have no idea how to play and sure would get hit by the ball . Haha . Call ended, dear woke up to cook . =P . I went to the near by shop to get us drinks . Had spaghetti for lunch and i did the washing up . Went back his room for some TV when Jiejie smsed me for family dinner . I agreed . So as we were preparing to head out back to my house, his house phone rang . Luckily i got dear to answer, if not his relatives would be waiting outside the door . Haha . So then i met the relatives and stayed for a while more .
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Back home, we waited for ErJie to be back for the dinner . Called her, and to know she just woke up . Haha, so we went to the Zi Cha near by . One big family, only one not around is JieFu due to work, had crabs, woohoo . Haha, ordered, waited and ErJie came . We had dinner together . I missed those times . =) .
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Almost done with crabs, someone called dear . Haha, he couldn't answer because his hands was filled with crab sauce . So then we got done with the crabs and to find out it was Doris and guy . Durians for supper . Haha . Back to my house, we chatted while waiting for Doris and Goh to finish the movies . Again, i miss those days . It's always the young days when we sat down and do things together . =) . So then my phone rang, it was David . He said he's around my area and had his car done up except for alignment, asked me out for a round about . Of cause, i said ok . Couldn't bring dear along because David didn't wanted to . Misunderstandings in the past army days . So dear waited for my at the void deck while David drove me up Lim Chu Kang . He had his Jazz's rims changed, suspension changed, exhaust changed, not sure of the rest . Came back, dear was playing his cellphone game . So we head off to Geylang for durians, and back his house for the night because petrol is still very expensive . Think : Geylang to CCK to Hougang then to back to Camp near my house the next day OR Geylang to Hougang then to CCK and off to work ? Second choice chosen . =) .

Having said so long, please don't comment that i'm naggy or something, just wanna get down bits and pieces of life, even the smallest thing that could possibly happen .
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Alright, study today, and tomorrow is the night out with sisters, and back to study after which .
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Wish me luck . =) . Ciao people .
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P.S. I missed my classes, seems like i haven't been meeting up the POKS . Miss you cliques . =)
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Make me stronger or let me die .

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

4:51 PM

♥ Wednesday, August 06, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 6th August 2008 . It's only a week since i last posted an entry, but it seems like i haven't been updating for so long . So many things going on, i feel like the days are too fast . I don't even get to slow down and take a look at my life . Seriously, i can never expect happily-ever-after life with so much work .

Revision week starts next week, and i really wonder if i can make it through . I know it myself, i wouldn't be at my study table everyday . Everything has to be worked through . I'll try, and shall ask Mom to purchase cartons of RedBull for me . Haha .

Anyway, dear found my blog . Haha, not sure if you will be reading this, but this is most likely the place where you'll find the answer you want if you're so afraid i might go missing . =) . Big hint it is . I'm just not telling you . Today is Aloysius's ( dear's friend ) 27th birthday, had a celebration for him last night . Doris ( his girlfriend ), bought Swensens cake, a pair of NIKE shoes and a top . We only went to sing him a birthday song, hope it's enough to make him happy . It's birthday after all . And my very wonderful dear just decided to scare me by approaching from my back . Good thing i did not scream nor shout, and i do look at who's it before i give you a punch on the face huh . Haha .

New HOT STUFF magazine is out, Celest got on the cover page girl . She's beautiful, but some said she looks way older then her actual age . Haha .

http://www.hotstuffmag.net/modelsDetail.php?ID=066CT

And here's her blog . =) .

http://celestina-loves.blogspot.com/

Do support her . =) .

Jiejie's maternity leave ends this August, and she's going Thailand mid-August . So she wants a sisters clubbing - 13 August 2008 . I look forward to that . One last party before exams . After exams, i work and make sure i get 2K for lisence . I want that lisence, i demand for it, i'll force myself to work for it . I make sure i do it .

Hmmm . I've no idea why, i've been moody lately, i feel that things are not going right . What if one day i lie about where i go, and disappear forever ? What if one day, i leave a note on the table to bid farewell, and just left for migration alone ? Would i ? Cause i just know, even if i don't work, even if i have no career, even if dear earns enough to feed me forever, in this very city, it's hard for me to ever enjoy life the way i define it .

-Paranoid-

Time for school . Time to see friends . Time to try and stop thinking .

Stop thinking ? The problem is not yet solve, the question is left unanswered . The chosen one is always to escape and not think about it .

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

9:08 AM

♥ Monday, July 28, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 28th July 2008 .

Know what ? Skipped school today, yet, again . Report due today, but i barely complete half of it, see how bad a state am i in . Anyway, skipping school means to get report up by today for sure . Sigh . Sometimes i really wish i could lead a happy life even if it means no posh-condo-located-in-the-mid-of-town, no fairlady 350Z, no designers' dressing, no Louis Vuitton hand bag, and definitely no Jimmy Choo heels .

Damn fulla programs last weekend, i almost thought i got my freedom in Singapore . Haha . Friday night, catched Dark Knight midnight show and slacked around ( i forgot what else i did ), slept at 6a.m. . Saturday, to the airport for last CYA duty, then to St. James Boiler Room and party till 4a.m., went for supper and slept at 6a.m. too, Sunday wentta work at SABA from 12noon to 4p.m. and wedding dinner food testing session at night .

Isn't it cool ? It is . . totally .

Our first ever clubbing night together at Boiler room . We had Johnnie Walker for the night, his friend, Koh Jin, went back to America for studies yesterday, so Saturday night was a farewell party sort of thing . Drink, loud music, new friends and dance, lucky he knew not to drive there, if not he'll miss out the fun . Clever boy huh . =) . Club ends, supper came, prata to feed the hunger . We took a cab back his house .

Sunday came, working at SABA makes me feel i had chosen the wrong course of study . Sometimes i rather be in the industry making people happy and getting cash, than to be earning big bucks feeling so stressed up like a fool . Whatever the case is, Steven is resigning, working till 31st July 2008 . Well, another left, who's left ? Sigh . Anyway, i wish him all the best . =) .

After work, we wentta Dragon Gate Restaurant . Goh's looking for a place to hold his wedding dinner, so we tested their food over there . Result . . . not good enough . What we ordered was premium food, but the taste was not of premium level . Lobster was so-so, shark's fin had this seafood smell sticking to it, the cod fish isn't fresh from it's color and the seafood rice wasn't nice either . The whole group comment that the best dish of all was - fruits . Haha . Yeah, it was the fruits that save the day . LOL . The trick is not telling them we're there to test the food so what the results came at the end would be the results we're looking for .

Just talked to Er Jie . Her superior . . . sure needs a slap on the face hard till i can see my palm shape on it . . or even my finger prints on it . Till then her head shall turn a few rounds and be ready for me to slap another side to balance it up . And this is what i have to say to you ANGIE NG FOONG CHOO .

I might be a lot younger than you, and you might be alot older than me, but i'm sure what i've learn so far in life is so much so much more than you, at least i got some SENSE more than you . You have no idea at all what's the point of life . Let me tell you what's the point of life . The purpose of life is to make achievements and lead a happy life, so meaningfull that a life as precious as this could only happen this once . That you're so lucky to have a life as a human being and not an ant, that you could BE SMARTER THAN A PIG ! Would you be happy to destroy people's happiness ? Would you be happy to break people's bowl of rice ? Would you be happy to even pick on people ? If you are, it's either you're in hatred with these victims or you are mentally unsound . Yeah, you might be fighting for a vacancy so your brother could work with you, in the same company, in the same office, or perhaps in the same table as you, worst comes to worst sitting on a double seat office roller chair sharing tables, staples, pens tabulating expenses and balancing the accounts together ! Oh what a great sister you are, i'm so touched . *boo* .

PUI ! !

If you're so concern over his career the more you should let him go on his own bare hands and foot into building his career himself . AND NOT BY PICKING ON MY POOR SISTER WITH SOME DIRTY TRICKS OF YOURS SO SHE COULD RESIGN ON HER OWN ACCOUNT AND LET THE SEAT OVER TO YOUR BROTHER ! ! !

A simple letter of appraisal, you couldn't even say something nice ? Seriously . . is this the life you wanna be known as after you die ? Lookin back when other ghost asks you how's your career like ? Oh, i always pick on my subordinates, i love doing that, that's more like my job . Is that gonna be your answer ? Coz it's no point lying after you're dead you know .

I might have no right to say all these to you . But if you pick anyone up the streets and show this situation, you can really know, and know it inside out - YOU'RE A FAILURE IN LIFE .

What comes around goes around, retribution exists .

you can run,

Whether or not you believe in it . . .

it's Karma .

but you can't hide .

And Angie Ng Foong Choo . . . you'll face karma sooner or later .

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

1:39 PM

♥ Sunday, July 20, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 20th July 2008 .

I'm so tired, yet i can't sleep . Just when i could get some rest, things cropped up .

Was feeling so damn lifeless yesterday, asking around who would wanna go pub with me . Seems like i don't have much party friends . Ended up, went home after airport duty, checked mail, showered, wentta meet David . Played poker, and asked him to send me to Boat Quay .

Yes, i went drinking alone, at Bedroom Bar . No cocktails, no flaming lamborghini, no magarita, no long island, no irish coffee, no snowball and no cranberry vodka . Limited cash, i went on with Tiger beer, 3 bottles, one on the house from the crew having seen me so lonely . Haha, ain't cheap, disco hours have higher charges, one bottle of Tiger beer cost S$14/- . Had a game of pool with the crew too . I lost, he's a professional play i guess, skillful at angle shots . Had a great time even though i was there alone, music is loud enough, bass is strong and i have lesser matters to worry about when i was there . Wentta sat outdoors after that and i saw 3 WRX, the new hatchback ones, parked in front of me . Not nice, though one had rims and brakes changed . However, the new WRX is better, 2.5litre car . Can't wait to see the full mod up drive .

Went off at 5am plus, close to 6am, reached home, slept, and woke up at 12noon .

Guess i'll have to rush my report and finish my IS revision for tomorrow's test .

Will update soon .

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

5:31 PM

♥ Saturday, July 19, 2008

M Y . C O M P L I C A T E D . L I F E

Today is the 19th July 2008 . Knew i haven't been updating, been real caught up with things . I feel so shag, lifeless, no strength, weak and so like a patient .

I guess 90% of the class should have chosen their electives by now . Well, for me, i haven't . I think choosing something that works alone . Group work only makes me slack be a free rider . Like now, IS, knew nothing, did nothing, and don't even know what am i gonna do . RWPS, only managed to start yesterday with Cindy's help .

THANKS, CINDY . =)

Next Monday's IS test, Thursday's Tax test . I'll chiong, with Shirley . =) . I need to find motivation . September ! That's it . I'll work hard and smart now, i'll force my way through this in a positive manner and i'll get my reward this September . 6 weeks of holiday starting from 30th August 2008 . I'll work again, earn more this time, no more spending, and i MUST get my lisence no matter what .

I wanna sleep, but i just can't sleep . I'm tired, really tired, but i can't sleep . For who can help me is not helping, who can't help ain't able and those who wanna help doesn't deserve to know about this sinful fact .

Sometimes i really hate myself . Why the hell can't i just do it, forget it, get it over and done with, and not get back to it . The more i think of it, the more i couldn't get myself outta it . But if i don't think of it, escaping doesn't solve the problem, 'cause i know, if i don't think of it now, i'll think of it later .

I won't cry in front of you, neither would i be sad in front of you . My tears are not supposed to be seen .

Save me .

M Y . W O R L D . M Y . L I F E

12:59 PM